Surrender

Doubts are creeping in, I feel them. 

Shadows of the past; my old friends. 

They tell me what I need to do. 

I don’t want to. 

Why does it feel like I can’t win,

everything is hopeless, again. 

Just when things were going great.

I’m my own worst enemy. 

I don’t want to fight anymore 

I don’t want to try anymore 

I put on my war paint and my shield and my sword 

but I don’t want this war, anymore. 

I know this sounds like a cry for help,

and I can’t do this by myself,

So maybe it is. 

But everyone I love gets hurt,

each time I ask them to carry my burdens

The only thing I know is to go. 

So I’ll go. 

I don’t want to fight anymore 

I don’t want to try anymore 

I put on my war paint and my shield and my sword 

but I don’t want this war, anymore. 

I’m waving my white flag frantically

so why are they still firing?

I’m starting to realize, there’s no way home.