not the daughter...

I’m Not The Daughter You Raised

It’s funny how

I look up and I still see your face

And by funny I mean

It breaks my heart in two

This isn’t where I thought I’d be today

Sometimes I just want to run away

I keep you in my heart

But I can’t keep holding on to the way

I miss your voice

I keep you in my heart

And I keep your words

I keep your words

These life lessons you taught me

Yeah they swirl around my brain

I look in the mirror and the girl I see

Is so ashamed

Cuz this is not the daughter you raised 

This is not the way you raised me 

And I know 

You would tell me I’ll be fine

But I know

If you only knew half of what I’ve been up to

And all of my lies

You’d give me another chance,

You’d confess to God for my sins,

You’d ask my soul be spared

You’d close your eyes and you would pray.

But praying’s never got me anywhere close to where I need to be

It’s always been the stars and the wind that guides me

And your raising.

I keep you in my heart

But I can’t keep holding on to the way

I miss your voice

I keep you in my heart

And I keep your words

I keep your words.

As much as I try, I can’t find

That girl inside me anymore. 

These life lessons you taught me

Yeah they swirl around my brain

I look in the mirror and the girl I see

Is so ashamed

And the responsibility I once loved feel like swallowing me whole

I just wanted to be someone you could be proud of.