Make Believe This Isn't Misery

Nobody said it’d be easy 

but it doesn’t have to be 

complicated. 

I don’t need any reasons, 

you don’t need to tell me 

explanations. 

No, I don’t want to sit down, 

bare my feelings, talk it out, 

I don’t want to make a change 

I just want to make it through the day 

Can we make believe that we’re 

Where we wanna we wanna be, 

Can we close our eyes and 

Pretend that it’s okay?

We don’t have to talk about it 

long as we both agree,

oh we can make believe. 

I don’t want to argue, 

I don’t even care about 

this distance between us. 

I think you & I both know, 

As far as relationships go, 

this ones for convenience. 

No, I don’t want to sit down, 

bare my feelings, talk it out, 

I don’t want to make a change 

I just want to make it through the day. 

Can we make believe that we’re 

Where we wanna we wanna be, 

Can we close our eyes and 

Pretend that it’s okay?

We don’t have to talk about it 

long as we both agree,

oh we can make believe. 

Oh, several years ago, we lit a spark 

But that flames long gone dark. 

Alone Time (rough)

We’ve been racing, 

working our way through the week. 

Meeting deadlines, 

walking dead up on our feet. 

But now it’s after hours

and you’re all that‘s on my mind,

You’re the only entry written on my schedule tonight. 

& I wanna pull your body closer to mine,

hold you in my arms through the night. 

Pull the covers over our heads 

cancel any plans that we’ve made. 

I wanna be alone with you. 

Let me be alone with you. 

My hearts racing, 

working my fingers down your spine. 

We’re in rhythm, 

two hearts beating in time. 

Oh, Baby, bring me higher, 

as the moon shines in the sky,

the only thing between us is the breath of your sighs.  

& I wanna pull your body closer to mine,

hold you in my arms through the night. 

Pull the covers over our heads 

cancel any plans that we’ve made. 

I wanna be alone with you. 

Let me be alone with you. 

Another Slow Song Wasted (Rough)

She’s the only person that he’ll sing to 

and he’s the one she dials on the phone 

when she’s thinking something through. 

He’s the one she trusts with all her secrets,

and she’s the only reason why he’s even out this evening. 

They’re sitting side by side, making small talk.

Slow song comes over the speakers, the same as when she calls. 

They keep their eyes ahead on the dance floor, 

both hoping the other would notice 

but neither find the courage and the moment slips away. 

All the drinking songs are basically the same, 

singing about the one that got away. 

But what about the one sitting right within your reach?

But you’re both too scared to finally take a chance 

to ask each other for that first dance

so you’re sitting in the same room, thinking the same thing,

another slow song wasted. 

This Ain't No Love Song

Oh, baby I knew better 

from the moment I met you 

even when I think back,

I know I knew you were nothing but trouble. 

But I thought I was different,

Guess I thought I could fix you. 

All I did was take pieces of myself to try and build you a soul. 

But now we both know

You don’t have one, you’re nothing but reckless 

You don’t think about anybody but yourself. 

Now I’m finally back upon my feet, 

but everywhere I turn, I see your memory, I’m haunted. 

And all I ever wanted was to see 

the man you promised me you could be, 

You promised. 

I know you’re the victim

in the tale that you’ve written 

Guess it’s easier to deny and lie than accept your part. 

You seek peace with a stranger,

and can’t handle your anger. 

I just hope the damage of rage doesn’t tear your whole world apart. 

And now we all know,

there’s no hiding, no sense in disguising 

your self destruction and nobody can slow it. 

Now I’m finally back upon my feet, 

but everywhere I turn, I see your memory, I’m haunted. 

And all I ever wanted was to see 

the man you promised me you could be, 

You promised. 

& Here I am again singing about the same damn man as 8 years ago, 

but this ain’t no love song.

Well that sucks lol

I know that there are times when I should just let things go.

I don’t have to pretend that I can’t see the faults of my own.

But you don’t have them printed out and posted on display.

Yeah, you won’t throw them in my face.

Because you’re my friend.  

I don’t know if my self sabotage is a method of defense,

Is this another effect of all of the damage that he did?

All I know is I can’t seem to let myself stop overthinking 

And I want nothing more than for you to 

To be that man that I need. 

But I think I lost that chance.

So I put up my walls and I kept you out until it was too late to turn around

And now you’re not even there and I’m standing here all by myself. 

Sometimes I think “why do I even write this down?”

Because I know I’m never gonna let you hear.

And I know I wouldn’t sing it out even if you were here.

But maybe it’ll give me something to think about, 

to say aloud the next time I see you.

I doubt it. 

Can you imagine if you only knew?

You know, I know that you’re not mine.

But everybody thinks you are, everyone says we should be,

except you.

And how could I convince you to think otherwise

When I can’t even convince myself that I’m worth it? 

If we could just go back past the last six years

Get back to the girl that you met that first time,

With the hopes and dreams and crazy eyes,

And when we left, you called my line 

I knew then I was on your mind, 

At that time.

But I’m not anymore. 

Or, only sometimes. 

Anyway,

That’s all I had to say. 

But before we leave, I want you to know,  

If you had ever asked me at any point, 

I would have walked away from everything including him, especially him.

But you would never ask me that.

Because you’re better than him. 

That Girl

The first time I

saw her eyes

I knew that we were in for a trip.

I couldn’t deny

She was the 

perfect candidate 

to steal your heart away.

I watched you 

Fall into

the trap she’d laid into place.

Before I knew,

I’d lost you,

and things would never be the same.

Who’s that girl

Standing there with the love of my life?

Who’s that girl

Walking away with the future I designed.

And I never even called you mine.

How dare she

Completely 

Turn my whole world inside out?

How dare I

Even try

To justify her as the bad guy?

Guess I get what I deserve

Because I never even said a word,

And now you’re in love with her. 

But my God, how bad this hurts. 

Surrender

Doubts are creeping in, I feel them. 

Shadows of the past; my old friends. 

They tell me what I need to do. 

I don’t want to. 

Why does it feel like I can’t win,

everything is hopeless, again. 

Just when things were going great.

I’m my own worst enemy. 

I don’t want to fight anymore 

I don’t want to try anymore 

I put on my war paint and my shield and my sword 

but I don’t want this war, anymore. 

I know this sounds like a cry for help,

and I can’t do this by myself,

So maybe it is. 

But everyone I love gets hurt,

each time I ask them to carry my burdens

The only thing I know is to go. 

So I’ll go. 

I don’t want to fight anymore 

I don’t want to try anymore 

I put on my war paint and my shield and my sword 

but I don’t want this war, anymore. 

I’m waving my white flag frantically

so why are they still firing?

I’m starting to realize, there’s no way home. 

Adri's Song

Adri’s Song

*A song from my little brother to his future wife. Cowriter cred: Douglas Mitcham*

When I look up to the stars 

they're playing our favorite song 

I look to the heavens 

And I know 

this is more than love.

Where I'd be without you now 

I can’t say I actually know, 

I found you down a long road 

That seemed dark and all alone.

When all I needed was a light

I somehow found a smile so bright, 

You warmed up my heart, 

Thank God I made it this far.

When I look up to the stars 

they're playing our favorite song 

I look to the heavens 

And I know 

this is more than love.

We can watch the days come and go 

Nevermore to be alone 

Right now I may be not be there,

But I know you’ll light my way back home. 

When I look up to the stars 

they're playing our favorite song 

I look to the heavens 

And I know 

this is more than love.

I hope you feel the same

I hope you’ll take my last name

Because with you, for the first time,

I don’t feel alone. 

Tell Tales

Lived the last six years of my life 

fearing what you might do.

Now I’ve got the chance to take it back

Away from you. 

So you can give them your version of the truth,

As it comes straight from you.

You can tell them anything you want,

You can tell them how I tore your world apart

You can tell them how I shattered your heart 

How I’m a liar and a thief. 

You can tell them how I stabbed you in the back

You can tell them all the promises you kept

You can tell them that, 

Just don’t forget to tell them 

I’m the one who left. 

I kept my silence for far too long

Now I’m speaking, and I’m on my feet.

And you don’t know how to react

cuz you’ve got no control left on me. 

Now all the whispers have grown to a roar,

and if they ask you know I’ll tell them, so what are you waiting for?

You can tell them anything you want,

You can tell them how I tore your world apart

You can tell them how I shattered your heart 

How I’m a liar and a thief. 

You can tell them how I stabbed you in the back

You can tell them all the promises you kept

You can tell them that, 

Just don’t forget to tell them 

I’m the one who left. 

not the daughter...

I’m Not The Daughter You Raised

It’s funny how

I look up and I still see your face

And by funny I mean

It breaks my heart in two

This isn’t where I thought I’d be today

Sometimes I just want to run away

I keep you in my heart

But I can’t keep holding on to the way

I miss your voice

I keep you in my heart

And I keep your words

I keep your words

These life lessons you taught me

Yeah they swirl around my brain

I look in the mirror and the girl I see

Is so ashamed

Cuz this is not the daughter you raised 

This is not the way you raised me 

And I know 

You would tell me I’ll be fine

But I know

If you only knew half of what I’ve been up to

And all of my lies

You’d give me another chance,

You’d confess to God for my sins,

You’d ask my soul be spared

You’d close your eyes and you would pray.

But praying’s never got me anywhere close to where I need to be

It’s always been the stars and the wind that guides me

And your raising.

I keep you in my heart

But I can’t keep holding on to the way

I miss your voice

I keep you in my heart

And I keep your words

I keep your words.

As much as I try, I can’t find

That girl inside me anymore. 

These life lessons you taught me

Yeah they swirl around my brain

I look in the mirror and the girl I see

Is so ashamed

And the responsibility I once loved feel like swallowing me whole

I just wanted to be someone you could be proud of. 

Summer night trouble

Summer Night Trouble

I see

I see the way you’re looking back at me

Dark brown eyes so filled with mystery

But I don’t care about your history

and you can keep your secrets.

Come here, 

Whisper ‘what’s your name’ into my ear.

Take my hand, the whole crowd disappears,

pull me to your body. 

Baby, you

You’re the kind of trouble I’m into

And I can’t seem to keep my eyes of you

And me, we could be  

The hottest thing about this summer night

Do you want to waste my time?

I know,

I know exactly where this thing could go

And I’m okay with dancing nice and slow

Or we can change the tempo.

Come here,

Whisper what you know I want to hear,

Take my hand, we’ll slip away 

and then pull me to your body. 

Baby, you

You’re the kind of trouble I’m into

And I can’t seem to keep my eyes of you

And me, we could be  

The hottest thing about this summer night

Do you want to waste my time?

Toxicity (rough)

Toxicity

There’s a toxic cloak of misery 

hanging in my closet 

Sometimes I take it out and shake off the dust. 

I don’t like to admit how well it still fits,

I guess even dead weight has its place 

And the past can’t be erased. 

I could never give you enough love 

to make you satisfied

But we both know it wasn’t love that you wanted.

I believe when they say

What goes around 

comes back around 

And I know I’ll get my share, 

But I also know 

that you’ll get yours. 

Falling again

Oh, God, I think that I’m in trouble

Think I’m falling again

Falling again, again

I keep my head above the water but I feel it slipping

I’m slipping 

Oh,

I knew the warning signs 

But I let you back in my life 

Somebody get me out of here 

Somebody rescue me 

Somebody get me out of here

I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe,

I guess I’m falling again.

Oh, oh.

I guess I’m falling again.

I knew it was too good to be true

But i still let you stay. I lied to my face.

And now I’m drowning in the river of the mess that you made. 

Sea of mistakes I can’t escape.

I thought I’d make it back

But it’s too late for that.

Somebody get me out of here 

Somebody rescue me 

Somebody get me out of here

I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe,

I guess I’m falling again.

Oh, oh.

I guess I’m falling again.