Poem in progress..

I'm so sick of being your
puppet a string,
call my name and I'll come running.

But running is over,
I'm done with your twisted games,
So excuse me while I pick up what's left of my sanity.

Someday I'm not gonna be there
for you to rebound
and you'll just fall down.

Go ahead, use me again,
but I guarantee this will be the last time.
I'll smile, I'm good at pretending,
But I'm nearing the end of the line.

M.Y.O.B.

I guess you're just jealous, I guess you're just insecure
but why do you think you always have to be heard?
Nobody cares, nobody wants to hear your ignorant thoughts
but you just keep rambling on.

But come on, come on,
just keep talking
'cuz every word you say just helps prove my case.
Come on, come on, just keep digging,
I'm sorry you're such a mess.
(haha)

Okay, keep on complaining,
don't you know you look like a fool?
Okay, let's grew up a little,
do you really think you're that cool?
I think you're losing it.

I think it's funny how you're throwing your life away
trying to ruin mine, to give me a bad day.
But all your efforts will be wasted if you aren't brave enough
to say it to my face, honey, say it to my face.

Yeah, come on, come on,
just keep talking,
'cuz every word you say just helps prove my case,
come on, come on,
just keep digging your own grave.

Okay, keep on complaining
don't you know you look like a fool?
Okay, let's grow up a little,
do you really think you're cool?
I think you're losing it.

I'm sorry your life isn't what you wanted
but that doesn't mean you get to keep your nose in mine.
I'm sorry you feel like you have to be needed
but I don't need you, you're nothing to me.

Okay, keep on complaining
don't you know you look like a fool?
Okay, let's grow up a little,
do you really think you're that cool?

But come on, come on, just keep talking,
you're entertaining me with your foolishness.
Come on, come on, just keep digging,
I'm sorry you're such a mess.

It must suck to be nearly forty five and still have nothing in life.

You Lied

If I thought there was a chance
for one last dance
I'd seize it in a moment.

But you know as well as I
that as the last song dies,
so does the love and our friendship.

Do you realize that
we could have been so much more than
just a few stupid kids
but that's all washed away with the tide.
I just want you to know,

I've bent and bent and now I'm beaking,
been there, done that before,
I've heard these slamming doors,
over and over.
I can't control the tears behind my eyes,
You promised you'd never make me cry.
You lied.

Prisoner

Set me free, sail away
across the seas,
but I don't know if that'd help me.
Give me your hand, your heart, your soul.
I promise you, either way I'll never let go.
Don't believe anyting that you hear
and only half of what I say.

I'm wrapped around your finger
and you don't want me.
But it can't be helped.
I know what I need to do,
I've got to leave this place
for rehabilitation.
But inside, I know,
as long as I can remember
your eyes,
as long as I can remember,
I'll be your prisoner.

I look up as I fall down,
I'm on the ground,
begging you to stay.
A little kiss, a simple touch,
it would never be too much but
it would never be enough.
I'm addicted to everything
that I feel
when you're around me.
Even if that's excruciating pain,
I'm game.

I'm wrapped around your finger
and you don't want me.
But it can't be helped.
I know what I need to do,
I've gotta leave this place
for rehabilitation.
But inside, I know
as long as I can remember
your eyes,
as long as I can remember,
I'll be your prisoner.

Can you retrieve me?
Can you release these shackles on my wrists?
Can you promise me that
I never stood a chance
even though I know the answer....

You Own My Heart

I'm not afraid of yesterday.
It can never be too late
to make a step toward what is right,
yeah, I've gotta make a change.

I can't see but that's okay,
I know that I'll find my way.
I may not be there tonight,
but I know I'll be fine.
I'll be fine.

Oh, with you, I know I can
do anything
if you wish it to be.
Oh, with you, I'm sure I can reach the stars!
With you right here, here in my heart.

My pulse is racing, pacing fast,
I can feel you in my veins.
I scream and reach up to the sky, oh!
You're my saving grace.

You're my grace.
(You take me to that higher place.)

Oh, with you, I know I can
do anything
if you wish it to be.
Oh, with you, I'm sure I can reach the stars.
With you right here, here in my heart.

You've erased all my scars, oh yeah,
Oh, you own my heart.

I'm not afraid of yesterday.

Because with you, I know I can
do anything
if you wish, if you wish it to be.
Oh, with you, I can reach up and touch the stars,
With you right here, here in my heart.

You're right here in my heart.

Yeah, you, you own my heart.

Please, Please

You are so beautiful
but you have no idea.
You are so loved
but you can't feel anything.

Don't you know that life throws its punches?
Don't you know that we all lose our way?
Don't you know that for every nightmare that you have
there will come a better day.
So please, please stay.

You are so wonderful,
but you can't let us in.
You're so broken inside,
trust me, I understand.

I know how it feels to be weak
and how it feels to be strong.
We can do this, just take my hand,
just take it, oh, no.

Don't you know that life throws its punches?
Don't you know that we all lose our way?
Don't you know that for every nightmare that you have
there will come a better day?
So please, please stay.

On the edge, life or death,
this is it, stay or quit.
I am on my knees,
we're begging you please, please stay....
Give the world a chance to change.

Don't you know that life throws us punches?
I promise you, we all lose our way, oh,
and I know it hurts so bad
when the nightmares in your head
seem like they'll never fade.
But I promise there's a better day.

On the edge,
life or death.
Please give us a second chance.
Please just take my hand....

Hosanna! (Lord, save me!)

Hosanna!

Why do we laugh when we really want to cry?
Why do we say it's the truth when we know it's a lie?
Why do we pretend that everything's okay?
We're too afraid, so we play these silly games.

We accept the things
that we cannot change.
We accept the things,
so they never change.

Why do we turn our head when we see dispair?
Why do we hear their cries and still not care?
Why do we we feel that love can be confined?
Why doesn't everybody deserve the same rights?

We accept the things
that we cannot change.
We accept these things with blinded eyes.
We accept the things,
so they never change,
'cuz we don't want to see.

But when the suppressed,
when all the broken,
mend themselves
and take a stand

Where will you be?
Will you be broken
or will you see?
Will you finally see?

Or will you still not believe?

Why do we accept the things we cannot change?
We accept with blinded eyes.
Why do we accept that love can be restrained,
We accept all the lies....

I believe in love, I believe in love.
I believe in love, I believe in love, oh yeah,
I believe in love, I believe in love. (Fix your eyes on the unseen!)
I believe in love, I believe in love, (Oh, Lord, please do not forsake me!)

I was blind, but now I see.

I'm not bitter
But there's a chance that I could be
a little bit broken
from everything you did to me.

I'm not sorry
I'm not trying to hide from the blame
I'm just trying to
understand the way you think.

Oh, oh, oh dear,
how did we, how did we
manage to get here?

I don't know where
I'm going with this
I guess I might
be a little bit
off track once again
but not even I can pretend
that I know what I'm doing
so maybe this is just proving it,
But rambling and reminiscences
are all I've got, reminding me
of how it used to be.

I may be crazy but
I can't candy coat this no more,
You have lost all track
of what you're fighting for.

I might stupid
I might be an idiot
but I have a feeling
this is worth it.

Oh, oh, oh dear,
how did we, how did we
manage to get here?

I don't know where
I'm going with this
I guess I might
be a little bit
off track once again
but not even I can pretend
that I know what I'm doing
so maybe this is just proving it,
But rambling and reminiscences
are all I've got, reminding me
of how it used to be.

I'm not bitter,
but there's a chance that I could be.

Once upon a time there was a girl
who lived in a fairly perfect world.
Fairytales came true for good little girls like her.

Then he came and broke her heart.
He tore her everything apart
before she could even get a start.

She says no, she says she's fine,
she's not fine, she's such a liar,
she's so wild now, a deadly fire.

Her soul is crying, inside it's dying
and there's nothing anyone can do.
No one can help her pull through.
And the sad thing is,
she used to be
so free spirited,
everybody loved her.
But now she is losing her sight,
yeah, she is blind now
and I just can't believe how
much that little girl has changed, oh,

She wore the perfect, golden halo
but now she's fading away and
the saddest thing I've ever seen
is when a songbird clips her own wings.

Her voice used to bring us to our knees,
with every note, our hearts were pleased but
now only empty walls hear her sing.

Back then, she'd made a lifelong pact
and though she truly wants it back
she feels that it's too far gone for that.

She says no, she says she's fine,
She is fine? No, she's such a liar,
she's so wild now, a deadly fire.

Her soul is crying, inside it's dying
and there's no one anyone can do,
no one can help her pull through.
And the sad thing is,
she used to be
so free spirited,
everybody loved her.
But now she is losing her sight,
yeah, she is blind now
and I just can't believe how
much that little girl has changed, oh,

She wore the perfect, golden halo
but now she's fading away and
the saddest thing I've ever seen
is when a songbird clips her own wings.

That girl, the one I used to know,
how could she let herself go?
Where did we go wrong?
This can't be happening to
the songbird that once freely flew,
how did she fall from her pedestal?

I know that I might be
a little bit naive
but even I'm not that bitter anymore....
I just can't understand
how you slipped through our hands....

And it's a sad, sad day
when an angel clips her own wings.

Your demons run deeper than skin,
higher than clouds that descend around you.

Your secrets are whispers in the night
you can't see past the fog that surrounds you.

If I could, I'd take it all away
I'd shoulder all your pain
If only for day.
Right or wrong, no kid deserves
To shoulder all that hurt
The hauntings from the ghosts.

Your biggest enemy is the blood that's in your veins
It's the one damn thing you can't escape.

And another are the memories from your past
How can you escape what you could never forget?

If I could, I'd take it all away
I'd shoulder all your pain
If only for day.
Right or wrong, no kid deserves
To shoulder all that hurt
The hauntings from the ghosts.

Heart Sing

In a dream
so far away
lived a girl
who couldn't face the day.

In a life
so guarded from
the everyday world, but her world
was worldy enough.

She kept her walls up high.

Until you, she never cried
but she'd never tried
'cuz the risks were too extreme.
Until you, she never cursed
but she'd never even spoken a word
because her heart had never sang.
Until you, she had never
even thought of forever as anything
other than nothing.

You made her heart sing, oh,
you made her believe.

It took awhile,
it wasn't instant.
She tried to shut him out
but he was patient.

Then one by one,
her shields came down.
He took her hand, he helped her stand,
helped her feet find the ground.

She'd never felt so much.

Until you, she never cried
but she'd never tried
'cuz the risks were too extreme.
Until you, she never cursed
but she'd never spoken a word
'cuz her heart had never sang.
Until you, she had never
even thought of forever as anything
other than nothing.

You made her heart sing.
You made her believe.

Who could've asked for better
than a love that'll last forever?
They knew that it was true.

Who could've asked for more than
everything they've ever wanted
I couldn't ask for more,
no more than you.

Until you, I'd never cried
but I'd never even tried anything
'cuz the risks were too extreme.
Until you I'd never trusted
I'd never opened up myself to anyone
thank you for showing me,
for making me believe, oh,
you make my heart sing.

It took awhile,
it wasn't instant,
she'd tried so hard to shut him out
but he was patient.

We Can

Can we forget where we've been?
Is it possible that you
could let this go again?
And I know I keep asking
for forgiveness
but I'm only human
I can't be perfect
and I promise it's not worth it
to let me back in.

But if you wanna try, try to try again
I'll do my best to keep your belief in me.
We can talk this over, we can make it through it
We can do it.
We can do it, oh...

Such simple words, so small
could tear everything down
It's so hard to figure out.
To get my mind around it.
I know this is the end of the line
if you don't change your mind.
And I can't say I blame you
for being worried, 'cuz I would
be, too.
This isn't easy.

But if you wanna try, try to try again
I'll do my best to keep your belief in me.
We can talk this over, we can make it through it.
We can do it,
We can do it, oh....

Yeah, this is your choice
say yes, I'll stay, or no, I'll go
back to where I belong
far away from here
Away from your heart
Or we could start
all over again.
Is this the beginning or end?

I must say
I wouldn't trust me
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.

Art

pull the words from the inner shadows of my soul
grab them, hold on tight, and never let go.
can you help me paint a picture
with a paintbrush of my fingertips?
and my mind is spinning,
counting all the spaces
where you used to be.
Don't apologize for silence,
'cuz that's just who you are
I talked too much, and you listened
your way into my heart.

So let the days pass,
let your face fade from my haunting dreams.
And I pray that next time I look
in your eyes, I don't get that feeling
that I'm falling again.

So let the harmony dance from my heart,
dance onto the page.
I'll do my best to paint you a picture
explaining how I felt, how I feel, the pain.
I'm doing my best to paint you a picture.

Cast Away

Delusions, confusion clouds
hover, smother and decay.
Don't believe anything you hear
and only half what I say.
Lay down your weapons
of destruction
Cast away your soul,
cast away your soul,
get it out of here.

This place is nothing but
an abyss of broken hearts
and lies crowding between the spaces.
Don't let yourself fall apart
You'll be taken over, don't leave yourself open,
don't seal yourself shut.