Let Me Drown

If I was half a woman 

I’d swim into the tide 

Let myself drift away, 

a ghost in your life. 

 

But now you’ve got my hand

as the current pulls me 

Further from the land 

And I can see you’re slipping 

I can see you’re falling in. 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back

Don’t pull me back 

Just walk away 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back 

Just let me drown. 

If I was half a woman, 

I’d embrace the waves 

Let them drag me 

To the ocean floor 

And sweep me away. 

The demons in my past 

they scratch the 

flesh off my back 

As you, you grip my hand

And I know this raft can’t 

withstand their cries. 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back

Don’t pull me back 

Just walk away 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back 

Just let me drown. 

If I was half a woman, I’d swim into the tide. 

no hard feelings, bro

 

I’m sure you knew this was coming 

You’ve heard it half a dozen times 

Late at night while I should be sleeping 

I’d text a broken hearted rhyme  

You can relax, 

I won’t tell our story. 

You were never mine 

But you gave me a piece of your time

I’m thankful for the strength you gave me 

And I hope it doesn’t hurt to walk away 

And if I ever cross your mind, 

I hope it still makes you smile. 

And I hope it was as hard for you 

as it was for me 

Say goodbye, to say goodbye. 

Sinners & Saints

If there’s a God up above 

Where is he?

Does he hate me?

I wouldn’t be surprised. 

If there’s a God up above 

Why has he forsaken me?

Why is it that I can’t sleep 

is it cuz I’m cursed?

But sinners & saints 

look an awful lot the same

to a lost soul. 

I just wanna find my way back home. 

If there’s a devil below

I bet he’s happy with me

He probably thinks

I’m doing his deeds 

If there’s a devil below,

He’s been guiding my feet 

But he cannot have me. 

I don’t wanna get lost in the dark.  

But sinners & saints 

look an awful lot the same

to a lost soul. 

I just wanna find my way back home. 

I never meant to hurt anybody 

That’s just how it goes when you’re 

living your own glory. 

But sinners & saints 

look an awful lot the same

to a lost soul. 

I just wanna find my way back home. 

Your Ghost

I remember sitting in my bedroom,

Nineteen years old 

You paced the floors as you stared at your phone. 

Your sister told you I was bad news. 

Somehow, I always wonder how she knew. 

I remember laying on your mattress 

in your bedroom floor 

I held you as you cried over her. 

Our new beginning rose, a Phoenix from the ashes 

from the former vows you burned. 

I remember riding in my car

down your lonely hometown streets 

I slammed my hands on the dash and I screamed 

that I hated you. 

I remember the expression on your face 

When you knew you’d been caught 

And how you pushed me down to the floor then sat on the other side of the bathroom door I’d locked 

And we both cried. 

Every day since you’ve left has been a weight on my heart  

And the memories I see through my rose colored sorrow 

When you come to me in my sleep, I swear I feel your touch 

And it breaks my fucking heart cuz all I ever wanted was love. 

The day they put you in the ground, I thought you released me from your chains, 

I said I’d never have to fear that you will tear me apart again. 

I visit you in daytime, you visit me in dreams,

I bring you flowers, you bring me to my knees

And I can’t escape your clutch  

So I just embrace your ghost. 

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to JJC