Blank Faces

If home is where the heart is
I guess that's why I'm lost
'Cuz there's no heart in this place,
I guess we've all forgot.

Safety has its burdens,
everything has its price.
This city's nothing but a blank face;
there's no soul in its eyes.

Dreams are left deserted
as we're told which paths to take.
Resistance is toilsome,
for only shadows await.

So concerned with being
the brightest light, the shining star
and never just quite reaching
what we've traded our souls for.

Scattered through the darkness
are those whose dreams run free.
Criticized for questioning,
they're knocked onto their knees.

They can hear the music,
can hear the city's mournful sound.
Fighting to death, they are,
to bring color back to this town.

Like ghosts,we wander through the streets
trapped in silence as we meet.
Marching forward to the beat of broken hearts.

Can you hear the music,
hear the city's mournful sounds?
Hold on to your blessings,
only fools crave the crown.

Bigger Than Us (unfinished)

They whisper, asking why do I do it?
Why do I waste my time on a hopeless dream?
I don't even know what I'm doing,
and, "My God, she can't even sing!"

They can't figure me out, what I'm all about,
they say I'm so absurd.
Why do I feel the need to hum a melody
and have my words be heard?

Well, you might say that I'm crazy,
that's okay, I know I wear it well.
There's just something about a symphony
that makes my heart swell.
But don't tell me I'm not worthy.
I'm not foolish just because I believe
in something bigger than me.

Stolen Dreams

Every night
she wakes up crying, but he
he just closes his eyes.

And every day,
she slips on futher until
she thinks the struggle isn't worth fighting for.

Now we'll never know
We'll never know
We'll never know
what could've come.

All of his life,
they've said he's crazy and
now he's starting to think maybe they're right.

Because when he dreams
all of his demons awake
so he takes his guaranteed escape.
He gave up on life.
Now we'll never know
We'll never know
We'll never know
what could've come.

We all have a chance!
We all deserve to dance!
So don't believe them when they say that you
are worthless, just believe me,
life is always worth it.

We have to know,
we have to know,
we have to know
what's to come.

Don't you want to know?
Don't you want to show them all?
Don't you want to know
what's to come?

Here's to the pained,
and here's to the broken; don't
Don't let them win this fight.

Wooden Castle (Unfinished)

Just a little girl in that pick-up truck
with the windows down and the radio up.
Singing together to my favorite song,
and you pretend I didn't sing half of the lyrics wrong.

I'm in the middle as we drive on along
through this one-horse kingdom that we call home.
This is forever to a six year old,
this is where my heart belongs.

He's my Knight in shining armor,
she's the beloved Beauty Queen,
and together we rode along in our blue Chevy steed
heading toward our wooden castle
where all my fairytales come true.
Yeah, that was happily ever after,
sitting right there with you.

Somewhere the fantasy seemed to fade to gray.
Real life stepped in and got in the way.
My Knight grew older, and with age came stress
Our Kingdom's loyalty was really put to the test.

But they stood firmly, no, they wouldn't sway,
They gave everything to keep our wooden castle safe.
And like a pillar, they stand side-by-side,
shining brighter than the stars in my childhood eyes.

He's my Knight in shining armor,
she's the beloved Beauty Queen,
and together they are everything that I'll ever need
Standing in our wooden castle
where all my fairytales come true.
Yeah, that was happily ever after,
standing right there with you.

As the years have passed, our castle has undergone storms.
But my years of memories will always live on.
As I stand here in the darkness, I can almost hear the horns,
can almost see the world through the eyes of that little girl.

Fairytales (Unfinished)

Pretty girl; it's not that we all know you better than you know yourself.
We just know you fall so hard.
It's not that we all know what's best, we just know what's not.
He's got you fooled by his Southern charm.
It's not that we all want control, we just want you to know just what
you're really getting into.
It's not that we don't want you happy, we all love you dearly and
we just want what's best for you.

Not being mean,
but girl, you've got to see.

There is more to life than kissing queens
and shining knights and Prince Charmings.
There's more to life than handsome kings
and carriage rides with noble steed.
He's promised you his kingdom if you'll take his hand,
but you don't understand - his castle's nothing more than sand.

Unfinished

I remember what you did to me,

put me under siege
and I had to take cover

So don't you come here begging me,
pleading, crying, 'Baby, please',
'cuz we're so damn over.

I thought we were a perfect scene
out of a perfect dream,
but it was a short-lived nightmare.

Darling, can't you see
that we are through;
I'm so over you.

You pulled me in with your lying eyes,
your perfect disguise,
you promised me the world then

You ripped my heart right out, you see,
you really made me bleed,
and I'll never forget it.

Don't call me "princess",
You're so worthless,
I'll never forgive you.

Darling can't you see,
that we are through.
I'm so over you.

Rough, rough, rough draft.

You've turned everything around,
is that good or bad? It's up to you to decide.
You've hit rock bottom, the ground,
and now you've got a choice. You can face it or hide.

If you don't like your life
then change it.
If everything seems a wreck
rearrange it.

It's easy to forget where you're going
if you're too focused on where you've been.
Believe me, it's easier than you think,
Where you're at now is the place to begin.

You've drawn some harsh battle lines
but it's never too late to erase them.
There will always be another try,
but you've gotta take the chance, gotta face it or hide.

If you don't like your life
then change it.
If everything seems a wreck
rearrange it.

It's easy to forget where you're going
if you're too focused on where you've been.
Believe me, it's easier than you think,
Where you're at now is the place to begin.

Response to Blake Shelton

So I was listening to Blake Shelton's new single and I thought it'd be cool (or maybe lame) to write a response.... so I did :)

My oh my, can't believe you're lookin'.
It makes me almost lose my footin'.
You'd run away from my bad cookin'.
I'm just the same when you're not lookin'.

I like my liquor smooth and soft.
I never seem to find matching socks.
There's many bad habits I have,
like hour-long bubble baths.

My oh my, can't believe you're lookin'.
it makes me almost lose my footin'.
You'd run away from my bad cookin'.
I'm just the same when you're not lookin'.

I want you to know... I want you to know...
I want you to know...

I sometimes cry when I get mad.
Chocolate is always my best friend.
I buy a pedi 'cuz they're better, anyway
and my granny is my saving grace.

I'm just the same when you're not around
when the door is locked and the shades are down.
I listen to my music pretty loudly
and I'm thinking about you all the time, it seems.

My oh my, can't believe you're lookin'...


- This is just me being silly. :)

Secret Keeper

Secret Keeper

Secret keeper, better keep those lips sealed;
filled to the top with words you'll never reveal.
Secret keeper, better keep your mouth closed.
Hold on tight, never let yourself go.

Secret keeper, never doubt
I'll hold you accountable.

I guess that's the price you pay
living off others' mistakes.
I guess that someday you'll learn
secrets aren't meant to be heard.

Secret keeper, better keep my advice,
secret-telling isn't worth the price.
Secret keeper, better keep til the grave
or you'll regret it to your dying day.

Secret keeper, never doubt,
you'll be held accountable.

I guess that's the price we pay
living off others' mistakes.
I guess that someday you'll learn
secrets aren't meant to be heard.

Secret keeper, I was one the same
until I was overcome by the pain...

Secret keeper, never doubt,
you'll never escape broken vows.

I guess that's the price I paid
living off others' mistakes.
I hope that someday we'll learn
secrets will always be heard.

Secret keeper, there's a bomb with no shelter
and you hold the detonator.

Procrastinationnnnn

Wow! I was just going through this thing and I realized that I had comments! That's insane! It makes me blush, honestly, knowing that someone else actually read something I wrote... haha. I'm sheepish.


I just want to thank anyone who may stumble upon this page and reads these words. Maybe you're a friend that I practically dragged to the site, or maybe a nosy family member. Or maybe you're just some random Joe/Juliet who somehow managed to find the ramblings of some strange girl.

No matter who you are, I want you to know that you're amazing and I appreciate you.

Thank you!

Feel Like This

Flashback to the first time we met --
I swore I'd never forget
the magic in your eyes,
you gave me butterflies.

Flashback to the first time you called me,
three days felt like eternity
and when you finally asked me to dance,
I couldn't catch my breath.

All of my walls, they came crashing down in your arms.
Boy, you sure make hating love hard.
All of my life, I have waited for this moment,
dreamed of it, wished for it,
never thought it would feel like this.

Flashback to the night in your car
when you kissed me for the first time under the stars.
And nothing will ever begin to compare
to that first night that we shared.

Flashback to our very first fight,
the first time you ever made me cry.
But you didn't, you wouldn't walk away.
I begged you to leave but you stayed.

All of my walls, they came crashing down in your arms.
Boy, you sure make hating love hard.
All of my life, I have waited for this moment,
dreamed of it, wished for it,
never thought it would feel like this.

We'll take it one day at a time,
but when I look into your eyes
with you looking at me that way,
it's so easy to dream...

Fast forward, few years from now,
white dress, black tux, and some vows.
Preacher speaks his words of peace and
then I fall into your embrace....

And all of my walls will come crashing down in your arms,
Boy, you sure make hating love hard.
All of my life, I will wait for that moment,
wish for it, dream of it,
and I hope it still feels just like this.

I hope we still feel just like this.
You've shown me fairytales exist.

Never Hit

In honor of Valentines day, I figure I will post a negative and a positive addressing this romance nonsense. This one was written for a person dear to me who is going through a rough time in his marriage. I initially wrote it in his presence as a joke, but it's been on my mind, so I'm reworking it a little to give it a more serious vibe. Note: This is going to be a very rough draft...

Never Hit

I gave you a rose for every year together
since we said, "I do".
Yeah, I never thought I would run out of chances
to show my love to you.

But you folded, you ripped all to pieces everything
I was fighting for.
So on this so-called "special" day, I'll make sure to turn and say
as I'm walking out the door,

"You threw away my lovin'
so I never hit a dozen.
You swore 'til death due us part,
but you only broke my heart.
I thought I'd be giving you roses by the barrel
but we only saw seven together.
You threw away my lovin',
I never hit a dozen."

Feel

She'd learned not to fool herself
with dreams of meant-to-be's.
People will always let you down;
it's their only guarantee.

Yeah, once she let herself feel hope.
Her mind, it ran away.
She lost her grip, they let her trip.
She learned a hard lesson that day.

Call her a cynic. Call her whatever.
She's hard as a rock, you can't win her.
She's a killer, a roaring screaming in the wind
and she only wants to feel.

He is different, he swears he can't take
another fight. He's burning through the night.
He spends his time trying to make himself believe
that he just hasn't found Mrs. Right.

Yeah, once, he thought maybe "it could be"
but the world turned him down.
He's clinging to what isn't true
and it's beating him to the ground.

Call him a stranger, call him a cynic.
He's so lost inside, they don't get it.
He's a dreamer, a roaring screaming in the wind
and he only wants to feel.

I've tried not to care, but I can't
'cuz I know how they feel inside.
She's too broken, he's lost and I've been there
and I found what made me right.

Yeah, He and me, it's amazing, the wonder,
I will follow Him to the Truth.
And all He's shown me is love and compassion
and He told me that they deserve it, too.

Call me a traitor, call me whatever
for thinking that they deserve better.
I'm a believer, and I'll stand for what I feel is true
I have faith, I believe, I believe in love.

She's too broken, he's lost and I've been there...

Edited

I went back and edited an older poem that I have previously posted on here. I think it's called "Please, please stay" in the archive... Now it's just "Stay". It isn't often that I go back and change lyrics, but the song popped into my head along with a melody and new lyrics. Here's the new one (the older version can be found on this blogspot somewhere, haha).

Stay

Don't you wish we could turn around,
turn the hands of time, step away, rewind.
You're drowning in a sea of your mistakes.

You can't see that you're a beauty queen
'cuz you're blinded by your misery, oh,
You're so loved but you cannot feel a thing.

Don't you know that life throws its punches?
Don't you know that we all lose our way?
Don't you know that for every nightmare you have,
there will come a brighter day?
So please, please stay.

Don't you know that you're wonderful,
irreplacable, but you're shaken, oh,
Your walls are high and you cannot let us in.

I know how it is to be weak,
to be scared to death, to barely speak,
but I also know how it feels to be strong,
so take my hand, come on, oh,

Don't you know that life throws its punches?
Don't you know that we all lose our way?
Don't you know that for every nightmare you have
there will come a brighter day.

On your knees, on the edge,
only grains of sand remain, your decision must be made.
I'm on my knees, Oh, I'll beg,
Won't you please, please stay? Give the world a chance to change....

Life will still throw its punches...
I promise you, we all lose our way, oh,
and I know it hurts so bad when the nightmares in your head
seem like they will never fade...
But I promise there's a better day.

Please give us a second chance,
please just take my hand...