a taste of toxic

 i guess i've always been drawn
to the chaos and drama, to the trauma
and the taste of toxic
so bittersweet on my tongue
and my lips, chapped from his skin.
I guess there's no wonder,
no way to deny
that it's probably why
when I look in those clandestine eyes
it sets a part of my soul on fire. 

It isn't love.

Hell, it isn't even really lust. 

It's seeing a tangled mess of 
a fucked up, twisted mind
that looks just like mine
reflected in those dark brown eyes
that, all things aside, 
have already promised 
the night of my life.

Please, come over?

11/21/2020

ladies of the night

A fiery star 
shoots across the skyline
and thoughts of you
race into my mind.
You were always 
drawn to the dark
and I was drawn
to your amethyst heart.
Two wandering souls
with curious desire
entangled our limbs
and danced in the fire.
My skin scorched by
the flames of your lust,
we burned through the night.
Now ashes and dust
and a few memories
are all I cling to
from the summer when we
lived by the night
and the light
of the moon, and 
the meteorites. 

Fall, 2020

trauma seeks trauma

 your hands, my hair
my throat, my wrists,
your body on mine,
anything to stop the chaos of our minds.

you only know how to tame this mess of a brain
because you've lived your whole life with the same. 

your whispered breaths
against my flesh
that trauma seeks trauma,
and pain can numb pain,
and you're older than me, 
you'll show me the way.

so the bruises you leave
on my raw, tender skin
are your mark in time
of a moment of when
you used your body 

to set our minds free...

...even if just for a moment. 

11/11/2020

locomotion

You're just the latest of stops on my trainwreck of a life 
as I'm barreling down the tracks, going 
eighty, 
ninety, 
ninety five miles per hour 
toward a brick wall,
down a dead end road,
off a cliff. 

I know, inconceivably, how this is gonna end.
With every sin,
we're picking up speed
and it can't possibly last must longer,
and we can't possibly go much farther,
and we can't possibly make it through this without causing a scene,
but damn,
it sure is nice to have some company.

I don't know why you entertain me, though.

Maybe you like watching trainwrecks, too. 

11/10/2020