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I was in too deep on this ride to get off 

Or so I thought

So I thought 

But Baby I've been moving closer, to the door. 

So I'm not so sure. 

Im not so sure. 

I spent so much time 

Trying to make a dead garden grow,

There's not even grass left to tend anymore. 

Throw up my hands, I need off 

Off this rollercoaster horror ride

You've had me strapped into,

It's time for you to turn me loose.

And I'll exit stage right, out of this fantasy 

I've clung onto 

because the set's burned to the ground 

Only we can save us now. 

I meant what I said, when I swore you my truth,

But how about you?

Baby how 'bout you?

I might be a man of my word, but I'm no man's fool.

So now we are through. 

Guess I'm really through. 

To hold us together, 

I lost so many pieces of myself 

Good thing there's a few still left. 

Throw up my hands, I need off 

Off this rollercoaster horror ride

You've had me strapped into,

It's time for you to turn me loose.

And I'll exit stage right, out of this fantasy 

I've clung onto 

because the set's burned to the ground 

Only we can save us now. 

I guess the only people we had fooled were ourselves (Turn around, there's nothing left!)

Ourselves (Gotta do this for yourself!)

But that won't keep the crash from hurting less. 

I gave it my best. 

Throw up my hands, I need off 

Off this rollercoaster horror ride

You've had me strapped into,

It's time for you to turn me loose.

And I'll exit stage right, out of this fantasy 

I've clung onto 

because the set's burned to the ground 

Only we can save us now. 

You, Around

When you come around, I stumble.
When you come around, my heart skips a beat.
When you come around, I find myself replaying every second,
every word that you say to me.
When you come around, my hands tremble.
When you come around, you make my knees go weak.
When you come around, you take my breath away,
Boy, I must say, I’m a whole different girl with you around.

I second guess, have regrets, cross my lines drawn in the sand.
I lose my grace, turn my face, hide the bruises that you make.
I wipe my tears, cowardly fears, keep my eyes shut tight as my heart hits the ground.
Boy, I must say, I’m a whole different girl with you around. 

When I walked away, it wasn't steady.
When I walked away, it was with a racing heart.
When I walked away, that fateful night, I finally picked up enough
pieces of myself
to run away with some semblance of who I was before you came around.

I second guess, have regrets, cross my lines drawn in the sand.
I lose my grace, turn my face, hide the bruises that you made.
I wipe my tears, cowardly fears, keep my eyes wide open as each foot hits the ground.
Boy, I must say, I'm a whole different girl without you around.

My biggest mistake was ever bringing you around.

Mind Space

I haven't written in awhile, 

Guess things are going pretty good. 

I haven't had that much to say,

at least much that would be understood. 

So why do I sit here awake

as the hour hand creeps toward two? 

There's just too much that's on my mind

And half of its because of you.

I scribble down and then erase. 

Can't string together what I want,

the words that I could say to you 

without revealing my true thoughts. 

Of course I'm not exactly sure. 

It seems I'm hiding from myself

or maybe I'm just too afraid 

to see there's really nothing left. 

So though my voice may fall flat

my heart is buried in the verse.

If silence speaks, it's screaming now,

the clearest answer I have heard. 

There's no more knowledge that I seek,

It's resonating with the truth.

Talk might be cheap but surely, dear 

I might be worth a word or two. 

I guess I'd best be on my way.

There's no more business left to tend. 

Although they may be worn and frayed 

you've mostly knotted our loose ends. 

And should that tie ever slip,

it will only form a noose. 

There's just too much that's on my mind

There's simply not space there for you.