Monster (rough)

   

Nothing makes as much sense 

As when I meet your gleaming eyes 

And nothing makes me as happy 

As when you tell me how much you hate me. 

I spent the last seven years trying to feel 

something

And now I feel everything 

And my heart races

And I feel the heat rise to my cheeks 

Where your palm just struck my flesh,

And this time I wanted it. 

Do you hear that?

There’s a monster lurking in this room

In the corner, by the mirror where I’m

Watching you 

As you stare at me and our reflection,

And I pretend to see who I’d like to be. 

This isn’t anything different than anything I’ve ever known

But at least this time I don’t have to fight it. 

And so you bruise me, 

You grab me by the neck 

You push me back 

And help me forget 

And the monster in the corner 

Just laughs at my face 

Cuz he knows that I know 

What comes next

But this time

I consent to it

I turn the lights down low

so I don’t have to face what I see

In the mirror,

The reflection of who I wish I could be 

 

Why is it I have dream catchers on every bedroom wall

and somehow he strolled right through them?

Guess they can’t catch him. 

Guess a nightmare is stronger than some string and feathers. 

And the monster in the corner

looks over to see

How I’ll react when you order me down on my knees 

But I fall down

Willingly. 

And I turn the lights down low so I don’t have to face 

The reflection in the mirror 

Of who i wish I could be. 

And now we lay here 

It’s over

And it’s silent 

Damn, I hate the silence 

But you turn to me 

With a gleam in your eyes 

And you ask me 

“Did I go too far?”

And I laugh maniacally, 

Cuz the monster in the corner 

and the girl in the mirror 

are both 

me.