Let Me Drown

If I was half a woman 

I’d swim into the tide 

Let myself drift away, 

a ghost in your life. 

 

But now you’ve got my hand

as the current pulls me 

Further from the land 

And I can see you’re slipping 

I can see you’re falling in. 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back

Don’t pull me back 

Just walk away 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back 

Just let me drown. 

If I was half a woman, 

I’d embrace the waves 

Let them drag me 

To the ocean floor 

And sweep me away. 

The demons in my past 

they scratch the 

flesh off my back 

As you, you grip my hand

And I know this raft can’t 

withstand their cries. 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back

Don’t pull me back 

Just walk away 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back 

Don’t pull me back 

Just let me drown. 

If I was half a woman, I’d swim into the tide. 

no hard feelings, bro

 

I’m sure you knew this was coming 

You’ve heard it half a dozen times 

Late at night while I should be sleeping 

I’d text a broken hearted rhyme  

You can relax, 

I won’t tell our story. 

You were never mine 

But you gave me a piece of your time

I’m thankful for the strength you gave me 

And I hope it doesn’t hurt to walk away 

And if I ever cross your mind, 

I hope it still makes you smile. 

And I hope it was as hard for you 

as it was for me 

Say goodbye, to say goodbye. 

Sinners & Saints

If there’s a God up above 

Where is he?

Does he hate me?

I wouldn’t be surprised. 

If there’s a God up above 

Why has he forsaken me?

Why is it that I can’t sleep 

is it cuz I’m cursed?

But sinners & saints 

look an awful lot the same

to a lost soul. 

I just wanna find my way back home. 

If there’s a devil below

I bet he’s happy with me

He probably thinks

I’m doing his deeds 

If there’s a devil below,

He’s been guiding my feet 

But he cannot have me. 

I don’t wanna get lost in the dark.  

But sinners & saints 

look an awful lot the same

to a lost soul. 

I just wanna find my way back home. 

I never meant to hurt anybody 

That’s just how it goes when you’re 

living your own glory. 

But sinners & saints 

look an awful lot the same

to a lost soul. 

I just wanna find my way back home. 

Your Ghost

I remember sitting in my bedroom,

Nineteen years old 

You paced the floors as you stared at your phone. 

Your sister told you I was bad news. 

Somehow, I always wonder how she knew. 

I remember laying on your mattress 

in your bedroom floor 

I held you as you cried over her. 

Our new beginning rose, a Phoenix from the ashes 

from the former vows you burned. 

I remember riding in my car

down your lonely hometown streets 

I slammed my hands on the dash and I screamed 

that I hated you. 

I remember the expression on your face 

When you knew you’d been caught 

And how you pushed me down to the floor then sat on the other side of the bathroom door I’d locked 

And we both cried. 

Every day since you’ve left has been a weight on my heart  

And the memories I see through my rose colored sorrow 

When you come to me in my sleep, I swear I feel your touch 

And it breaks my fucking heart cuz all I ever wanted was love. 

The day they put you in the ground, I thought you released me from your chains, 

I said I’d never have to fear that you will tear me apart again. 

I visit you in daytime, you visit me in dreams,

I bring you flowers, you bring me to my knees

And I can’t escape your clutch  

So I just embrace your ghost. 

—

to JJC

Little Cowgirl

 Little Cowgirl 

Hey, Cowgirl, 

don’t be afraid

it’s okay to drop the reins.

Hold out your arms 

with a smile on your face,

let the pony lead the way. 

Nothing comes easy in this world 

but you’ll be just fine, little Cowgirl. 

So saddle up your horse 

and let’s ride. 

Hey, Cowgirl 

I know it’s tough 

nobody tells you how to grow up. 

Just hold out your arms 

wipe the tears from your face, 

let your spirit lead the way. 

Nothing comes easy in this world 

but you’ll be just fine, little Cowgirl. 

So saddle up your horse 

and let’s ride.

*For my little blue eyed cowgirl. 

Fool’s Gold

 Fool’s Gold 

I traded comfort for awhile 

when I saw that rugged, southern smile. 

His eyes were dark as they were wild. 

I traded comfort for the ride. 

He knew these people, knew these lands

and took me by my shaking hands.

And for awhile, he was my friend, 

He knew these lands. 

“There is money in these streets,”

he turns and says to me. 

And the ones who came before us

sang a mighty chorus,

“Go home! Go home! Go home!” 

But I traveled right along. 

He tended to my broken heart

Smoothing all the jagged parts.

He listened to my tired songs, 

He listened to my heart. 

He pruned and polished every night 

and brought my soul back to a shine. 

And when he stood to look, he smiled,

he brought to me a shine. 

“There is money in these streets,”

he says and looks at me. 

And the ones who left before us

screamed a mighty chorus,

“Go home! Go home! Go home!” 

But I traveled right along. 

But the gleam of make believe 

started to turn dull,

It took some time to realize 

I was only Fool’s Gold. 

On a cold December evening, 

the well of fortune ran dry. 

He bid goodbye. 

I finally heard the warnings, 

 and cried along with their chorus, 

“Go home, go home, girl, go home.”

So now I’m just collecting dust 

and trying to rebuild my worth 

I thought that I could be enough,

but I’m just dust. 

And now the tune is good as dead 

As the voices in my head 

That I should have listened to

Back when they first said,

“This is not where you belong.” 

So I guess I’ll go on home. 

——-

“I guess I really am the biggest fucking moron. Because goddammit, did I believe you. How fucking foolish.” - me

Goodnight, I’m Sorry

 

We had a hard day today, 

didn’t we?

We were going back and forth 

like sworn enemies. 

And I’m sorry that my anger 

got the best of me. 

 

But close your eyes, 

take my hand

Let’s leave the day behind 

and together we will dance 

across the stars until the sun 

decides it’s time to rise

and maybe tomorrow I‘ll get it right. 

I know sometimes it’s like 

you can’t do anything right 

But when I get so upset 

the fault is only mine. 

And it doesn’t make it okay, 

but I want you to know I’m sorry. 

Please close your eyes, 

take my hand

Let’s leave the day behind 

and together we will dance 

across the stars until the sun 

decides it’s time to rise

and maybe tomorrow I‘ll get it right. 

And I know 

Through the eyes 

Of a child 

Love has its blinders 

And I don’t 

Want to be 

the one who tames the fire 

That burns so bright 

I’ve got to get this right. 

Please close your eyes, 

take my hand

Let’s leave the day behind 

and together we will dance 

across the stars until the sun 

decides it’s time to rise

and maybe tomorrow I‘ll get it right. 

Baby girl, tomorrow, I’ll get it right.